My feeling now is just like the recent earthquake in Japan … no… i shouldn’t compare myself to Japan … but I feel awful š
I can’t tell anyone else about what’s going on now except BH… and I just don’t wanna bother him..
I know the bubble will eventually burst… but… i didn’t expect it to be so soon…
It’s killing me š
The view outside my window..
sigh.. nothing compared to the previous apartment… oh well… I wanted lots of natural light BUT I have tonnes of afternoon sun shinning right into my home… the glare from the sun ( even with the shades down) is causing a HUGE headache… booo…. let’s hope it gets better…
Still trying to unpack… shall blog more…
and…
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
I consider myself very blessed because yesterday was the 1st time that I have ever felt so angry for the past 1.5 years? I was so angry that even though the weather was cold and I am in t-shirt and shorts… I find myself perspiring after the confrontation. I wish I could vent my anger and frustations at the gym right after the incident BUT I needed to cook dinner! Sigh… so I took a whole lot of deep breathes and think happy thoughts ( All about Bambi). Then I emailed BH who called me almost immediately (VERY RARE) – he said ” I WILL COME HOME NOW AND SPEAK TO HER ” You know.. I knew BH for almost 10 years and this is the FIRST time he seem confrontational!! Even if he was just humouring me… it felt good!
The story:
We are staying in a community with 2 buildings, namely A and B. Building A is the main building where the gym, leasing office and storage units are located at. We are staying at Building B
So, we are moving. As you know, moving is a P.I.T.A Though there’s only 2 of us, it’s amazing how much rubbish we have. We conveniently dump our rubbish in the storage unit ( since we paid for it!)
In order to move and ‘unclutter’ our stuff, we need to pack the things in the apartment and also the storage unit. Storage unit ( located in Building A) is not a short distance when you have to carry many things by hand and on foot. We need to drive our vehicle to the front of the storage unit to put our items in.
Problems:
1) we are staying in Building B, poor us, we do not have access to drive our car into Building A’s garage. We need the remote for the Building A’s garage! Technically, we need to borrow the remote and return to the leasing office after use.
2) Leasing office is not opened on Sunday, so we can’t borrow the remote. To add on, leasing office is only opened during normal business hours, so if we want to pack our stuff in the storage unit, it will need to be during OFFICE HOURS!
3) We only have 1 car. When BH is at work, he tks the car. Me, myself can’t possibly carry so many things. It’s crazy!
4) Saturday is our move! and we need to do the packing!! we had already wasted last weekend because the leasing office was not opened for us to grab our rubbish in the storage unit!
5) The management of our apartment is inflexible and think of anyone who wants to borrow the remote for Building A as potential crooks!
The Confrontation:
I went down and spoke with the manager in the leasing office. I told her about our issues and requested to borrow the garage remote until end of this week so that it could ease our move.
She was very persistent in saying no. She kept insisting that ” Safety is NEVER convenient! ” Bloody Hell!
I explained to her and tried to keep my cool… she was unreasonable and not understanding. She made several ridiculous comments which is sooooooooooooo ridiculous that i’m shocked that it came out of her mouth! ( Since she’s the manager!) I even asked her ” Do you think what you said make sense? ”
What she said :
“You should sit down and discuss with your husband to find a time you want to move the items out of the storage unit “ > YES – we had discussed and we want to pack after your office hours. I mean.. if u are such a smartass.. you shld just be a mover or help us to pack! Who are you to educate me about planning my move??!! Furthermore, we are moving in a few days time! Do we look like we have time to plan???!!!
“I don’t see why the storage space is quite small and you guys have so much things in there? “ > WTH!! we have our own packing style and we paid for the storage unit. Do I need to seek your permission to clutter my storage unit??? SERIOUSLY!!!
“Safety is not always convenient… “ > YES. I understand the point. However, you need to see things in a case by case basis. It’s so unreasonable to be so rigid in your rules! Since we have the keyfob to have access to building A, if anyone want to do any bad things, they can also do it. You don’t need a garage remote for that! Even if the person borrows the remote and didn’t return, you can deactivate the remote on your system , so that it doesn’t work anymore. When we lease the apartment, you have our details – IF you do not trust us, why lease the apartment?
It’s ridiculous and I just don’t understand that weird angmo. She must be the rudest person I have ever met. I think she’s not from Seattle, most of the pple in Seattle are nice!!!! BOOO!!!!
Solution:
NOTHING I kept calm and graciously thank her for her ‘HELP’
My suggestions:
1) Warn residents staying in Building B beforehand that they will not have easy vehicle-access to their storage unit
2) Build storage units in Building B itself
3) Management to trust your residents and allow the borrowing of garage remote in a case by case basis
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Property: *2 years old apartments near the space needle*
Overall remarks: Do NOT stay here! Look at the no, of apartments available for lease now. This shows that many people are moving out!!! Why people are moving out??? Oh well.. for obvious reason(s)!
Say “HI!!” if you are reading my blog
I guess every blogger have their site tracked. So do I ! Sometimes, I’ll look at my blog stats and realised that MOST of the pple came to my blog because of Gmarket! Others were directed here via our link on facebook .
Well, I’m perfectly fine with you reading what I have typed (That’s the whole pt of the blog!) BUT do acknowledge yourself since you spent at least 2hrs+ reading from the 1st entry to the last!! wow!! I salute you! haha.. now my blog feels so ‘raped’!!
If you are keeping quiet, I totally respect your privacy but it’s nice to know who my silent readers are… I’m just plain curious and I always wonder who is actually interested with my boring life!
Anyway… a HUGE HELLO to all who reads my humble blog!
When I feel happy and at peace, I’ll think of every other friends/pple around me who are ‘suffering’ or ‘slogging’ hard at work (these pple don’t include BH as since he has me.. he’s the luckiest man in the whole wide world.. haha) Then I’ll ask myself “what have I done to deserve this happiness I have now” It just mks me feel like inflicting pain to myself and ‘suffer’ so as to join the crowd of unhappy pple…
Let you into a little secret… friends who know me for a long time might have noticed that I have a bleeding or swollen thumb , which I used a plaster on (at times) when it gets very bad. Well, for years, I’ll just peel the skin of my thumb and mk myself feel the pain because I’m just so stressed and unhappy with life. Looking at my thumb now, it looks normal – I just don’t do that anymore!
haha… do i sound nuts? I used to find it hard to tell pple that I’m happy… now I can say that I AM HAPPY and feel HAPPY at the same time… oh yes… my brain is in-sync with my heart.
and then u may think… “duh!! If i’m like u… I’ll be happy everyday too!!” The problem is you are not me, I do have many issues that ‘threatens’ me being happy
These issues mks me think that why should be happy? I have been happy for 2 years.. it needs to stop. Ok…I should let all these issues overcome me and be unhappy! I shall be unhappy… just because I haven’t done anything in the past few years to be happy… I don’t deserve to be happy
Now’s the question: To be (happy) or not to be?
Happy New Year!! Whoa another new year has gone by so fast… looking back I cannot really think about any negative issues that happened in 2010, so it must have been a good year for me! š
I have a wonderful wife whom cook the best food a man could eat. She takes good care of us too, I am so thankful to have her around.
Work has been great but the year ended in a mix note, hopefully next year is better for me. Maybe I need a new direction. hmmm
I started writing apps for Windows Phone 7 (Check out FotoChop) late in the year and it made me realize how much I still love to create stuff. Don’t get me wrong, working in MS still allow me to do that, but its not something that I can say “Hey that’s all me!” Really glad that I jumped on the train and started development on my own again.
Next year would be a challenging year ahead for us, with a HDB flat in Singapore and juggling all the needs. I still have faith that we will do well and get to all our end-goals, just another new set of challenge, but hey what is life without challenges? š
Resolution? I hate resolution cause I never remember that far. I will probably want to cook more often and better (edible) food in general next year.
That’s all folks. End of 2010. I will miss my twenties and looking (reluctantly) forward to the thrities…
Godspeed all.
of the winter season!!
The weather for the past few days is super cold! i mean ‘cold’ is an understatement.. it’s FREEZING COLD!! for once, we miss the weather in Singapore!
Quite thankful that we stocked up on our food supplies this week! phew!
BH is at work now and I’m praying tt he won’t be delayed by the snow and he cld mk it home fast š
It’s almost 10 years ( about 8 years now) and I still can’t live a day of my life w/o thinking of the event which lead to my current situation š I just can’t let go.
I know nobody will know BUT I see the after-effects of it every single day. Behind that smile, my insecurities huants me. My failures torments me.Ā I feelĀ like I’m theĀ LOUSIEST human being on earth
It’s simple for pple to say , it’s only a few years, just go back to serve your bond BUT it’s so hard to do. The happiness I had experienced here cannot be replaced. nah.. BH isn’t my sole happiness.. it’s the liberty of time, freedom and doing what I wanna do anyday, anytime. I’m happy being left alone. I’m happy just doing window shopping!
A few days back, we received the letter that our flat is ready at the end of Nov. IF we were in SG, we would be super happy.. I mean.. we would have been like every normal couple, getting ready to move-in.. or maybe we would be getting married soon…
BUT NO
we are here.. and we hope to be here..we WANT to be here.. so “pple” just wanna eye on what is solely ours and mk the decision for us! I am awfully upset – they mk suggestions w/o considering abt me, my bond and my happiness… The bottomline is IF I CAN’T HAVE POSESSION OF IT, NOBODY CAN I just wanna cry out loud and have someone to take time to walk in my skin
Going back to SG is so stressful – packing is 1 thing.. touching downĀ in SG and settling all these adminstrative thing is another.
Things would be simpler if we were in SG and we NEVER had the opportunity to come here
Then again, we won’t wanna give up anything here because of my bond and the flat
canĀ be stressful too .. *sigh*
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This is a blog post with no pics š we are taking lesser pics these days.. because things are more or less the same? oh well…ok.. i’ll mk a concious effort to take pics ! means… we’ll do something new this weekend! Hopefully eat out? We haven’t ate out for sometime.. and cooking is currentlyĀ on ‘repeat’ mode
Last weekend, BH’s collegue invited us to his house-warming party.. It was the 1st time I met this particular collegue and guess what’s the first thing he told me? “so… you are the one responsible for BH’s delicious lunch!!! we are soooooooo envious of him!!!” even if he’s just being nice… that sentence made my day night! hahaha… there’s somebody who’s envious of BH lor….Ā haha… so i was discussing this with BH andĀ he was like “of course they are envious! our canteen food is soooooooo limited ya know! I am soooooooo happy that I have lunchbox for work!” This is seriously my motivation to cook everyday
So it’s the ‘free’ period for now.. i like it when i’m free.. coz I like to spend time looking for new recipesĀ and try cooking ( or re-cooking, just to perfect a dish/cake) A few days back, I made Kaya again! Yums! No pics.. but BH and I are like sooooooo happy when there’s kaya.. haha… means we’ll eat Kaya toast with 1/2 boil eggs for breakfast the next day. Super shiok!
BH and I also went shopping and bought some new ‘costumes’ for our upcoming holiday!!! oh yes… BH just cannot tahan that we have been treating ourselves badly for the past 8 mths so he seized the opportunity to book tix to _ _Ā _ _ _ _ . wahahaha…. not saying where yet :XĀ BUT we are looking forward to the ‘suddenly vacation’ next mth! š
