It’s almost 10 years ( about 8 years now) and I still can’t live a day of my life w/o thinking of the event which lead to my current situation đ I just can’t let go.
I know nobody will know BUT I see the after-effects of it every single day. Behind that smile, my insecurities huants me. My failures torments me. I feel like I’m the LOUSIEST human being on earth
It’s simple for pple to say , it’s only a few years, just go back to serve your bond BUT it’s so hard to do. The happiness I had experienced here cannot be replaced. nah.. BH isn’t my sole happiness.. it’s the liberty of time, freedom and doing what I wanna do anyday, anytime. I’m happy being left alone. I’m happy just doing window shopping!
A few days back, we received the letter that our flat is ready at the end of Nov. IF we were in SG, we would be super happy.. I mean.. we would have been like every normal couple, getting ready to move-in.. or maybe we would be getting married soon…
BUT NO
we are here.. and we hope to be here..we WANT to be here.. so “pple” just wanna eye on what is solely ours and mk the decision for us! I am awfully upset – they mk suggestions w/o considering abt me, my bond and my happiness… The bottomline is IF I CAN’T HAVE POSESSION OF IT, NOBODY CAN I just wanna cry out loud and have someone to take time to walk in my skin
Going back to SG is so stressful – packing is 1 thing.. touching down in SG and settling all these adminstrative thing is another.
Things would be simpler if we were in SG and we NEVER had the opportunity to come here
Then again, we won’t wanna give up anything here because of my bond and the flat