Meeting new people

I developed a new phobia – Meeting new people

I used to think that I am quite a social person who like to meet new friends. I enjoy talking and networking – on behalf of my quieter/more conservative husband. Things do change. I am not sure if it’s age or maybe I am just not as confident as I thought I was.

So, you know how the meeting people procedure goes…

First, you got to introduce yourself then your spouse
Next, talk about what you do… and here’s the problem or rather MY problem…

New friend: oo… you work for XXX company. What about you?
Me: I don’t work
New friend: I see

Here you get the odd pause or “…” response and the somewhat pitiful or sympathetic look ..That is when I second guess what he’s thinking “She’s such a lazy bummer who doesn’t work?!”

After repeats of 100000X of the above awkward situation, I feel sick to my stomach when I had to explain the painful and tormenting bond which is engulfing my soul and eating me up slowly. It is like a poison in my blood and pollutes my thoughts.

Leave the bond aside. What can I do without the bond? Sadly, NOTHING! My visa don’t allow me to work here! Unless…. some company is willing to sponsor me – who would?! I am not an IT professional! You know what? I will try.. nevertheless..

I always believe that work is not everything. BH is happy that I’m not working. I can’t avoid those condescending looks or weird conversations. Can I?