everything which goes wrong is my fault š
Actually, it’s not my fault, but i still care .. this gives me additional stress.
Haven’t been sleeping well for the past few weeks – I have a sick obsession with checking my email. I placed my phone ( used to check email) outside the bedroom BUT i still find myself waking up, looking for the phoneĀ and checking it.
Last night, IĀ drank wine.. MORE wine than usual.. hoping to feel tipsy so that I can sleep better thru’ the night… oh yes, it did help. I slept early, only woke up once to check my email and slept again. BH suggested I shld just take the cold/flu mixture – that always mks me concuss and sleep better. Maybe I’ll try it tonight.
This is bad.. and it happens only when I’m worried. Worried about things that doesn’t really matter to others? geez… too responsible maybe. Aren’t I weird?
BH and I had been feeling v tired and needed a real holiday. For the past few days, BH will come home andĀ tell me the same thingĀ ” can’t wait to go on a holiday man ” me too š but……….. ”Ā do we have enough? ”
Hoping to take my mind off things, I decided to cook alot of food yesterday – prepared and labelled BH’s lunchbox for the next few days. I was still not tired enough, so I went to the gym to sweat it out.
ahhh… finally I felt better and I woke up this morning to the same worries and fears again
I’m incoherent because I’m just plain worried and I can’t tell u what hereĀ :X