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I feel sad today .. I think the gloomy and rainy weather played a part

I guess I always feel sad when we need to set a date to go back to SG – not like we don’t miss our family and friends.. but we have more other stuff to settle when we go back to SG. The biggest of all is of course.. my BIG problem

BH had been great to me on most days – that’s y it’s so difficult to leave him and go ahead with my own life in SG. Initially, before I came over to join him , I rem telling Caryn that I feel alright without him BUT I don’t think I can mk the same statment anymore. I must be the weakest of all womankind. I feel so sorry for myself.

Sometimes, I just wish we had a simpler life. I mean I won’t feel miserable if both of us would be going home for good. This is not the case. I don’t want to be a selfish cow either 🙁

I can tell u a million things that I hate about myself and how all these contributes to my situation

It’s very easy for anyone to say that I shld go back and finish up what i’ve started .. but y is it so hard to do. I’m scared of the type of life

2 words: 遺憾