everything which goes wrong is my fault \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n
Actually, it’s not my fault, but i still care .. this gives me additional stress.<\/p>\n
Haven’t been sleeping well for the past few weeks – I have a sick obsession with checking my email. I placed my phone ( used to check email) outside the bedroom BUT i still find myself waking up, looking for the phone\u00a0and checking it.<\/p>\n
Last night, I\u00a0drank wine.. MORE wine than usual.. hoping to feel tipsy so that I can sleep better thru’ the night… oh yes, it did help. I slept early, only woke up once<\/strong> to check my email and slept again. BH suggested I shld just take the cold\/flu mixture – that always mks me concuss and sleep better. Maybe I’ll try it tonight.<\/p>\n This is bad.. and it happens only when I’m worried. Worried about things that doesn’t really matter to others? geez… too responsible maybe. Aren’t I weird?<\/p>\n BH and I had been feeling v tired and needed a real holiday. For the past few days, BH will come home and\u00a0tell me the same thing\u00a0” can’t wait to go on a holiday man ” me too \ud83d\ude41 but……….. ”\u00a0do we have enough? ”<\/p>\n Hoping to take my mind off things, I decided to cook alot of food yesterday – prepared and labelled BH’s lunchbox for the next few days. I was still not tired enough, so I went to the gym to sweat it out.<\/p>\n ahhh… finally I felt better and I woke up this morning to the same worries and fears again<\/p>\n I’m incoherent because I’m just plain worried and I can’t tell u what here\u00a0:X<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" everything which goes wrong is my fault \ud83d\ude41 Actually, it’s not my fault, but i still care .. this gives me additional stress. Haven’t been sleeping well for the past few weeks – I have a sick obsession with checking my email. I placed my phone ( used to check email) outside the bedroom BUT … <\/p>\n