Hi Baby

Motherhood is tough. Its only 2.5 weeks and I am counting down to the days baby leaves for college.

Here I am sitting in the nursery with Ringo by my feet, enjoying the quiet, peaceful moments before my baby wakes up from her short 2 hours or if i am lucky, 3 hours nap.

I wonder how am i going to get through the rest of the months, especially since my family will be miles away. Bing will be at work and i will likely be by myself. This makes me very anxious. Should i just quit my job?

January 22, 2018 is the day that made us parents. I experienced cramps around midnight and have bloody discharge – as though i was having my period. I ignored it and went to sleep, afterall, it was a week before the estimated due date. First baby usually comes late right?

I woke up in the morning and felt that the cramps did get alittle more intense. I panicked and quickly packed the hospital bag. I also finally cut off the tags on baby’s clothes and did the laundry. Very last minute i know. Nope, the cramps did not go away.

I told Bing about it and he decided to work from home that day. Pretty glad that he did – though i could tell that he was kinda annoyed, like it’s a bad timing. For the rest of the morning, I tried as much as possible to not think about the cramps. I did wall sits, called to confirm the cloth diaper service & made ‘padsicles’ for post partum use.

After lunch, I am still experiencing cramps. I figured since i can still talk and think, it is probably not time yet. Bing decided that we should start timing the cramps or i figured, the contractions.

The gyne office closes at 5pm. At about 3pm, Bing called the office and my doctor was able to see me right away. We just live 5 mins away from the hospital. So, we grabbed the bags and off we went.

The doctor checked me for dilation. I cried tears of relief when she told me i was 6cm, almost 7cm dilated! Gosh! I was stronger than i think i am. We checked in immediately. I can still walk, talk and was confident that I can do this.

The hospital room was big and it seem pretty quiet on a monday. I was relaxed. I remember changing into the hospital gown and watching Bachelor on TV. The doctor on call (Dr Hyde) came in to break my water bag. It was then when the contractions intensified. I practised my yoga breathing techniques (i think i sounded like a dog) and it did kind of help. However, I still asked for the epidural. I know i needed the strength and rest before the big push. I was shivering and feeling hungry (my last meal was 12.30pm!!).

The anesthesiologist came in promptly and i got the epidural. It was a HUGE relief. I got to 10cm dilated in about 3 hours. The doctor came to check on me and confirmed that it was time. I am scared. I prayed to God that it will be fast as I was so hungry – I am not sure if I can push for 2-3 hours.

At 10.30pm, we started pushing. I tried my best, listened to labor nurse’s cues. After about 2 huge pushes, she told me she see the baby’s head and she’s got hair. She wasted no time and called the doctor in. I know baby is coming! Dr Hyde came in within minutes and we started pushing with each contraction. He told me to reach down and touch my baby’s head. I hesitated as i found it disgusting but did it anyway. The feeling was amazing (silmy and bloody)! After about 2 more huge pushes, baby is out at 10.43pm! She let out a loud cry then proceeded to poop for the very first time! Phew! I was famished and thirsty. Glad it was over! Bing had the honor of cutting the umbilical cord.

I checked baby all over while doc is stitching me up. (2nd degree tear) I could see what he is doing on the reflection of his glasses but distracted myself and inspected my ‘product’ – Making sure baby have all 10 toes and fingers.

It was a tiring night but the start of a new adventure for us.

When things get hard, I will always remember the time when i reached down and touch her tiny, hairy, silmy head. God’s beautiful gift to us!

The nights are long but the days are short. How true….

Big changes in 2018

I took a last look at my favorite dress and stored it away… “Maybe I can fit into it again..”

I gave away some of my clothes as I do not think I can wear them anymore.

I teared when i see my new weight on the scale. How am I going to lose all this weight?

I cried quietly as I realised that I might be doing all my favorite things for the last time.

Things will never be the same again.

May 26, 2017 was the day I found out that I was pregnant. It was a few days before my flight to SG for a short vacation.
I had mixed feelings… and didn’t know what to expect. Bing was surprised too.. his reaction was “So fast???” and awkwardly gave me a hug.

My first instinct was my in-laws got their wish.. they must be so happy that i will be suffering and going through this pain alone. What if the baby is not perfect? What if there’s something wrong? What if they are upset about the gender? Me, as the mother, will be bearing all the responsibilities. Everybody will fault me. Well, I still feel this way.

I tried to hide my condition for as long as I can. I didn’t really want anyone to know… It’s weird when people congratulate me… Congratulate me for the future sleepless nights? for sore nipples? for having to deal with a fussy and whiny kid?

On the other hand, Bing is always busy. It’s just hard to get him to go to doctor’s appointments with me. He tries to come along but I feel that he’s 1/2 hearted. I still cook and do the groceries – he is too engrossed with his work to help. On most days, I felt that I am not getting the support and love I need. It’s like he couldn’t care less that it’s the last few months/weeks/days that it will be ‘us’.

The day is drawing near.. I am not looking forward and dreading the day… I know it’s gonna be difficult. I have all these worries about baby – its a whole lot of unknowns! In the states, we only have the ultrasound once. I had it twice because the first one was not clear. This makes me even more anxious :/ I can only pray that baby will be just fine and all my worries are unfounded.

So, how’s 2018 going to be for you? I know it will be challenging for me. Not only 2018 but the years ahead for me. Bing had been really busy with work.. sure, he said he will help.. but I know he will still let work take over his family life.

I guess getting pregnant was the BIGGEST thing in 2017 for me. I thought I will get a new job and jump start on a career in 2017 but it did not happen. I was miserable … now I don’t think it is going to happen anytime soon. In 2017, my joy came from Ringo, our sweet boy! He had a grand total for 3 dog trick titles this year! He is now an advanced trick dog!! Sadly, I am unsure if we can continue with this next year. He also recently developed an allergy on his right eye. We had been bringing him to the vet for the past few weeks and there’s not much improvements. I hope he will get better soon and be a healthy+happy dog in 2018 and years to come.

That’s all for now. Happy New Year!

Hello 2017

There’s something exciting about a new year. It’s like you have a brand new notebook and you are using a new pen to write on its very first page. Yup… I plan to have a nice notebook for 2017. I hope you do too.

2016 had been really great! I thought it was going to be a bad year… Coz 2015 was sooooo wonderful… In the end, 2016 was not bad too. I feel so blessed.

Some highlights of 2016:

June

We went on a short road trip to Long Beach, WA and Portland, OR with Ringo. It was really fun.. Ringo loves it! It was his first road trip with us..Overall,he is such a good boy… It’s so silly but sometimes I really hope that he is a real boy.. I think he hopes so too !

September 

Ringo was neutered. I blogged about it… It was horrible. I am Glad it’s all over and it’s just like nothing happened.

November

We went for our first doggy birthday party!! It was really fun! Corgis (& I am sure other breeds too) get so much love from their humans… Wah…we are not the only crazy ones!!

December

We participated in our first Corgi Christmas cards exchange!!! We received about 100 cards!!! Corgination is really strong!!!! Of course, all the corgis are so loved ?

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I don’t really want to have any expectations for 2017… I think it will make me upset if things don’t get accomplished. I am just at a very comfortable and happy point of my life now that I am so afraid of changes.

Yet again, I feel that I need to do something more to have a better ‘career’ path. I am not a career -minded person but knowing about how some marriages around me are falling apart, makes me realise that I do need to have a better job. Bing and I may be fine now… But who knows.. Right? Well, there’s nothing wrong with my job now… I do Want to work for a bigger company when I still can? I hope that I will have the opportunity to… You know.. 

My biggest wish is still for our families ( + Ringo and Bambi) and friends to stay healthy. Still hoping that Ringo can be a STAR dog one day πŸ™‚

Have a great 2017!! ❀️???

11 months of Ringo

I really wanted to blog but somehow time just slips by quickly.

Ringo is great! He is everything we wanted and more for a dog… It’s amazing how smart and good looking he is. Haha.. Sorry to be bragging about Ringo but… I don’t know how else to put it. Sometimes, I just felt that we are not giving him the best in his short life. Could he be happier in someone else’s home? 

It came to a time that we need to neuter him. We had been putting this Off for a very Long while. The breeder was fine with us neutering him when he is 2 years old. However, we enrolled in a health plan with a vet… And the plan includes neutering. We need to neuter him before the plan expires in October. We scheduled to have him snipped on September 11. He is about 15 months old.

I was extremely worried and scared. He needs to be on anethesia. I know it’s a common surgery but still there’s a whole lot of ‘what ifs’. I cried for a couple of nights knowing that I am about to make Ringo undergo the pain… He was such a good dog… No issues whatsoever…. 

On the day, we dropped Ringo off at the vet. He was so excited when we got on the car. He thought we were going somewhere fun. We left him with the vet tech reluctantly. I already had tears in my eyes. I didn’t dare to turn back. As we walked out of the clinic, I can’t hold back my tears anymore. I felt so silly. I think I saw BH wipe his eyes too.

Waiting for the vet to call was nerve wrecking. I can’t do anything right… Ringo was constantly on my mind. It’s amazing how that important call always reach you during the few minutes when you are unable to pick up. ( we were in a underground carpark and there’s no reception) The vet left a voicemail saying that the surgery went perfectly! I was relieved!

We promptly picked Ringo up. It was Super crowded at the clinic. We waited awhile. The moment the vet came out with Ringo… I had to hold back my tears again. Ringo looked sad, groggy. His eyes were oily and wet (like he cried but I learnt that it’s some oil the vet put on his eyes for the surgery) . His ears were down. Worst of all, he is in a cone! He looked at us with the ” what did I do wrong? Why must you put me through this pain? ” eyes. Ouch… It hurts me. I was heartbrokened. Nope.. I am the master… I can’t show it!

That first night after the surgery was tough. He did not eat dinner. Neither did he poop… Maybe he didn’t even pee. He was crying/whining for the whole night. Bing had to gently stroke him to sleep. I was Too heartbrokened – I drifted in and out of sleep… Straining my eyes open once in a while to check on him. It was a Long night… But we survived. Ringo’s first night home vs first night after surgery  – which is worst? I guess first night after surgery was slightly better. I am pretty thankful I took the week off.

This marks Our first experience taking turns to care for a baby. It will be 100x worst if it’s a human baby!

Ringo was still recovering the day after surgery. He did eat but still no poop. The following day… He was back to his usual self πŸ™‚ I am extremely relieved.

As I am typing this, Ringo is sitting right under my feet – Just chilling and spending time with me. 

Now, the recovery period will take about 2 weeks. We will need to restrict his activities.. No jumping or running. That’s Super hard…. I hope the 2 weeks will fly by soon enough.

It’s been awhile…

Everything’s great!

Ringo had been so far so good.. he get naughty at times but who don’t?! Dogs got their mood swings too! πŸ™‚ Sometimes, I look at Ringo and wonder how did I survive the past many years without him? haha.. feeling blessed that he came into our lives!

Time flew by quickly this year.. almost 1/4 of the year is gone! Nope,I did not achieve much. In fact, I am thinking of quitting my job and staying home – just like the good old days…I’m just not sure if that’s a good idea πŸ™ I mean.. my work isn’t that hard…

This week I did myself a favor and took the rest of the week off. It feels good to be out when most people are at work πŸ˜€ BH also took the day off. Yayness! We went for a nice lunch at Barking Frog. It’s ‘Dine Around Seattle’ promotion now. We had 3 course meal for $18! After which, we headed to a nursery to look at plants. Then, came back and did some gardening… Life is good!

Here’s what I did.. yes… can’t believe that it took so long just to find these plants and put them in a pot!

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Now…. I hope that the plants survive!!!

If you ask me what I think BH and I will be doing when we are retired? I can imagine us gardening and/or probably arguing about how we are going to put up the Christmas lights in front of our house..hahaha..

Getting late… till the next post!

2016!

2015 had been a wonderful year! So many things to be thankful for and I feel very blessed!

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I’m sad that 2015 ended..

I am pretty sure 2016 will be inferior compared to 2015.

So far….

1) Ringo is a wonderful puppy… except that he chewed on our TV remote, his raincoat and collar… what can you except from a growing pup right? Overall.. he’s a good boy.. Bing and I are still trying to train and socalise him as much as he can πŸ™‚ I guess my biggest wish this year is for him to be healthy and happy… ohh… my wildest dream is for Ringo to be featured in Buzzfeed or even better…be in some pet product commercial πŸ˜€ It is really hard to go to work, knowing that Ringo is alone at home. We usually crate him but who likes to be in the crate?! I am actually thinking of not working and being at home… I really missed the times when I just stayed at home – I work because my job isn’t that bad really!! Having some kind of financial independence is really important to me..

2) Work for me have been great! My boss is wonderful…. the workload isn’t bad! My work hours are quite flexible. Honestly, I haven’t been very focused on work lately as I am always worried about Ringo πŸ™ Maybe I should really quit.

3)New job?! Haha.. out of curiosity..I also tried to apply for new full time position… I went through 1 phone interview and will be having another next week… I am hoping that I will NOT get any offers for any positions. The interview part was just for exposure and knowing the salary scale. Accepting another new job will mean that Ringo will need to be in daycare! πŸ™

I am really not expecting 2016 to be a wonderdul year… I have no idea why am i so pessimistic… I guess… all the wonderful things happened in 2015 already!!!

Till my next update!

Almost 1 month of Ringo!

Ringo had been amazing.. He is a super sweet puppy.. We are so blessed to have him… Of course, there’s a number of ups and downs..

1st week-
It was tough… We had a lot of difficulties trying to crate him. Crating is important as it will give us a peace of mind when we leave home for work and when we sleep. We literally had to talk softly and persuade him to go to crate. Many nights, we just carried him into the crate.

Our breeder gave us a lot of support and suggestions. She’s amazing!

Ringo ears are still not standing. One of them is floppy ( until now!) .. Breeder actually came to our home to tape his ears… We were scared that she wanted to bring Ringo home… Phew…. Ringo’s still with us.

2nd week-
We are still trying to crate train him. We began just throwing random treats in the crate and even also tied a rawhide to the side of the crate. Gosh… It worked!! Ringo learnt really fast and was soon really excited to go to his crate. This makes us feel so much better when we are away and can’t bring him with us.

Ringo is really cute… He literally just zoom into his crate when it’s sleeping time… To think that we were having so much trouble and headaches thinking of how to crate-train him on the first week.. Haha

This is also the week that we started going for puppy lessons. This is a 6 weeks class, teaching owners how to train their puppies. Bing and Ringo did well (most of the time) in class πŸ˜‰ I also feel so glad that the breeder had actually trained Ringo pretty well as he is already well behaved.

3rd week-
We went for our first outing together with Jo and her dog, Mandy. We also sat outdoors, so that the doggies could join us.

Our first family picture

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4th week-
Halloween with Ringo. He was really well-behaved when kids knocked on the door for treats πŸ˜‰ Here’s our lion…

(He really didn’t like his outfit)

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So far, we are really happy … May Ringo always be a good and healthy puppy.. And we plan to bring him for Agility lessons soon!!

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Hi Ringo!

Today, we welcomed our first pet. It is a Cardigan Welsh Corgi, named Ringo. BH and I had been thinking of having a dog for a super long time.. And it’s surreal that it finally happened.

We or rather I wanted a Red and White corgi – it was hard to find a good breeder! Finally… We found a fabulous Breeder near us.. About 1 hour away..

We visited the breeder once but still did not know which pup is available to us. Usually, the breeder would pick the dogs for show potentials then the remaining ones would go to pet homes. Well.. The batch of pups available were tri Color corgis, not what I was looking for.. But you never knew which doggie will steal your heart right? So we went a long with it…

To tell u the truth, the moment I arrived at the breeder’s place, I was attracted by the 3 red and white corgis ( which were pending home or for show dogs) .. I didn’t think much of it…. But just knew that such doggies won’t come to us…. Who knows…….Our breeder got back to us about a month later and said that RIngo didn’t turn out to be what she wanted… His muzzle is too big… I was ‘stunned like vegetable’. Also on the other hand, another tri Color pup was available too. We were torn, not too sure which to choose….(in my heart, I hope Ringo works out)

This morning, we visited the breeder again….. Who knows!!! Our car can’t start!!!! Murphy’s law! Gosh…. Luckily, we have a wonderful neighbour, who came in to help us.. And we also have AAA membership and the battery tech came in about 30mins..charged the car battery and off we went.

We finally arrived at the breeder around 2pm. The first pup that came to us is Ringo!!! The other tri colour pup didn’t even want to come to us. The breeder also thought Ringo was good fit for us,’breeder instinct’ she says.

Ringo was really quiet and mostly still on the car ride. He is super laid back.. When he is home, he just wanna stick close to us. Our worry now is… He has not poop or pee!!!! He also don’t seem to be enjoying his meals.. I literally have to feed him bits by bits…

Well… The journey continues… We will need to work on the leash training tomorrow. New beginnings for us…

*Ringo is on trial period for 1 week.. Really hope he works out for us*

Here’s the picture of the day…

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7th 6eptember!

*This is a belated post*

I was chatting with some friends a few weeks back, telling them that this is our 7th year of marriage and on top of that we have been together for 13 years! wow! you know how the ” 7 year itch” is a term that suggests that happiness in a relationship will start to go down after around year 7?! Gosh.. how scary! and how the number 13 is not a good number?! and to think that ….we are at this point now! *shivers*

Well, BH and I are still very happy together. I am not sure about BH but at least, I wake up everyday feeling blessed and contented. When I get irritated or upset, I will snap myself out of it, give myself a pinch and think “Sheesh… why did I deprive myself of being happy for X minutes!” You know… life is so precious… who knows what’s going to happen in the next second!

For this year, BH and I headed to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico for our anniversary! It’s a short 4 Day, 3 nights trip. I’m not too sure if I mention this before…but BH had some mileage on Southwest and travelling to Mexico is the best way to utilize the miles (since it is considered a International flight) + I travel for free as I’m on companion pass.

Took a super early flight out on 5 September and arrived in the evening around 6pm (after a flight delay due to technical repairs). We stayed at Secrets Vallarta Bay. The resort was really nice… it was like a fortress by itself.

Imagine this… as the taxi approach the resort, there is a HUGE gate with a guard house… the taxi stops and the guard comes out to make sure that the resort is expecting you… then the gate opens…your taxi drives up an elevated S-curve driveway… and you are bedazzled by the amazing view…. then you realized… you are in paradise!

View from resort

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Of course, we were tired and hungry…. so we checked in. Our room was nice but it’s just too near the elevators. We can actually hear people walking in and out of the elevators. Also, the *beep beep* warning sound from the elevators’ doors. We were too tired to take any pictures or ‘complain’ so we just accepted the room.

The first thing we did at the resort was… to go for dinner!

Food was good but the portion was small… well… I guess, it’s good.. as we can eat however much we want since it’sΒ ALL-INCLUSIVE!! Oh yes, beverages and alcohol included!

Us at Puerto Vallerta

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The next morning, besides getting woken up by the noise outside our room… we also heard the sound of the sea waves – so serene! We got changed, had a light breakfast and hang out by the pool… just chilling.. I love such vacations… no specific places to go…just enjoying the food, drinks and view. (I got to add.. the beach at Cancun looks cleaner and more ‘blue’… the infinity pool at Sun Palace was way nicer than this one….but it’s still good.. at least it’s less crowded)

Drinking cocktail by the pool

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the afternoon, we decided to take a stroll at Broadwalk.. which was a short cab ride away. It was way tooooooooo hot… regretted it the moment we got out of the cab.. gosh… took a few pictures and headed back to the resort…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When BH booked the room, …we informed the resort beforehand that it’s our anniversary! we received champagne in our room and breakfast in bed the next morning!! wooohoo!! πŸ˜€

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Every day, the chambermaid will put a program sheet in our room, telling us the various activities happening in the resort… LOOOOK! Bing’s name was on it!! They forgot my name though… haha..

Basically, we just spent the next day eating, drinking, soaking in the pool, spending time with each other ( and with our phones + ipad Β , internet connection was fabulous!) It was sooooo relaxing… everything I want a vacation to be… Feeling so blessed to be able to come this far and enjoy life together!!!

we are 7!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This resort actually have pretty good night entertainment activities.. there were fire shows, casino night and acoustic live singing on each respective night we were there ! BH and I would hang out in the lobby… have some drinks and just chat while enjoying the sea breeze and view. It was monsoon season.. so it did rain heavily!! Fortunately , it usually stops after an hour or so…

Our vacation ended when we had to go back to work on Wednesday. There’s a 2 hour time difference between Mexico and Seattle. Ever since we got back, we are always hungry at the wrong time.. still trying to get used to the fact that food/drinks/good service is no longer a phone call or a hand wave away!! hahaha.. Hope to go back soon!!

If you ask me… Cancun or Puerto Vallarta? I will say……..Cancun if you love beaches. Puerto Vallarta if you wanna get away from the crowds.

It was a fabulous trip nevertheless!! Happy 6eptember to us and many more to come!!

Who’s reading?

wooo.. my super neglected blog πŸ™

well… everything’s the same.. the good kind of same….

I guess..something worth blogging about is…BH and I recently started talking about having kids and I just don’t feel ready…

It seems like we have a few things on our hands that we need take care off first.. before u start speculating… we do not have any health issues .. ok.. wait… we have high cholesterol which we are trying to control.. The biggest concerns are:
1) Our HDB in Singapore
2) BH’s family health history ( any genetic issues?)
3) BH’s ability to be a responsible/hands-on dad! I seriously have not seen him play with a toddler or held a baby before!

So, we are working towards preparing ourselves to get started… 1 of the things is… to fulfill our long time wish of having a dog! I think a puppy will be a good start to preparing ourselves.. it’s like a baby you know.. and also the 1st living thing we are going to take care of together…

we will see how this goes …