well.. I didn’t blog for some time coz I was busy with you know what.. It’s tiring.. but i sure enjoy what I’m doing… 100000000000000X better than the noble profession! I really wanna go into retail one day.. be a store manager or sales associate? I really dunno if i have what it takes.. but I like what i’m doing now really I don’t need to be someone who can change the world or mould the future… I just wanna be happy! Is it so difficult???
The past week had been miserable for me.. I thank all my friends who had shown me lots of love, suggestion and concern.. I think I had sorted things out
I believe the ultimate decision is still up to me.. I wanna do something for myself..
Guess what happened the last time I made a major decision using my HEAD instead of my HEART? I made a BIG mistake. I sold my soul, life and youth away… This time, I AM NOT GOING WITH MY HEAD. I shall go with my heart – I pray and trust that I will be mking the right choice.
I know the truth.. I know the best way out BUT when i hear the truth from someone else, someone dear to me.. I can’t accept it.
If it’s the decision I made and finalised myself, it won’t have felt this bad. Hearing it from him, just made me feel ‘unwanted’, ‘unappreciated’ – Did I do something wrong? Is my food so bad tt he wanna eat microwave food? If it’s gonna end up like this, why did we try so hard to come here together?
I am not angry.. I just need to blame myself for what I am now. The 1 thing which changed the rest of my life
I feel lousy – what I have done is not worthy or/and good enough to mk him think abt me ( i’m only at the back of his mind?) .
It was my 1st attempt to cook this… in fact, the FIRST time i bought bittergourd here… BH doesn’t like bittergourd.. so i DON’T cook bittergourd at all…
I LOVE bittergourd It feels good to cook your fave food for yourself! It’s sad but true…Only my mum will cook my fave food for me ..
Looks great – taste great! heh… Better than Facing East imo.. hehehe..
I always make sure that BH goes to work with lunch – if he doesn’t I feel guilty Maybe it’s just me… So I made Char Siew in addition with the Bittergourd + Rice
Hope he’s enjoying his lunch? I always thought going to work with a lunch box is the most ‘xin fu’ thing.. I wonder if BH feels the same? oh well… he’s just so bz and he doesn’t mk me feel appreciated for the things I do for him..
After thinking long and hard on whether we shld open the mixer or sell it…. we finally decided to KEEP it! heh.. no regrets! The size of the 6qts bowl is even bigger than my head BUT big bowl is good… it allows space to add ingredients and prevents splatters!
I love the all steel construction. Even the beaters and dough hooks are steel! ( unlike the Artisan, it’s plastic? not that sturdy esp if u r making bread dough) The colour of the mixer ( Dark Pewter) is really chic and pretty – matched our Brita flask. So we opened the mixer and we needed to test it out right? Used a cake mix ( the simplest way to bake) to bake cupcakes and a 9″ cake.
Cakes turns out nice! NO FUSS at all… no need to clean the batter which landed on the table… I have free hands to do some washing while the mixing is in process… wah! worth every single penny!
However, maybe the engine is ‘powerful’ ( 575 watts) – it’s super noisy, sounds abit like vaccum cleaner.. and maybe it’s new.. it has some weird engine smell coming out.. ohh… some parts of the flour was not mixed properly – so i needed to stop the mixer on a few occasions to scrape down.
Other than that…the mixing action is superb. It keeps the place clean and does the job done FAST
Us and our great kitchen helper – Will definitely try to bake bread soon!
PS: Being able to bake with BH is bliss… it’s like doing your fave thing with your fave person.. happy! I wonder how long more do I have.
I don’t need to be someone who can change the world or mould the future… I just wanna be happy! Is it so difficult??? 
